Seeking the Wonderful Counselor in Steps of Healing
Pounding the floor with each rhythmic step, a flood of emotions swept through my body during my morning treadmill run. My gaze was set on the wall ahead of me. I occasionally glanced at the fitness center’s television screen, but my mind was somewhere else. Others around me continued their workouts with little insight into the battle going on within my heart and mind.
I felt alone.
Small tears began to well up in my eyes, and I quickly pushed them away. My legs continued to move almost without me thinking about them, as my emotions cycled from anger to sadness to feeling completely betrayed.
My mind was in the process of accepting and acknowledging that I was a victim of narcissistic abuse.
With my earbuds snuggly placed in my ears on my run, I intentionally put on the song, “God Only Knows” by For King and Country.
God only knows what you’ve been through/
God only knows what they say about you/
God only knows the real you/
There’s a kind of love that God only knows/
The song was a reminder that I was never alone. Even in my darkest thoughts and fears, God knew my pain even if no one else did.
Satan wanted to keep me bound as a victim- hurt, believing lies, stuck in people pleasing, feeling regret, shame, and staying in confusion.
However, THE WONDERFUL COUNSELOR wanted to set me free, strengthen and empower me through His Word and the guidance of the Holy Spirit.
I had to take responsibility for my healing...
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