Seeing God’s Love Before I Knew Him
Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins.”1 Peter 4:8 (ESV)
“He who covers and forgives an offense, seeks love, but he who repeats or gossips about a matter separates intimate friends.”Proverbs 17:9 (AMP)
In my early twenties, I lived in a dark place.
Second-guessing decisions often left me empty and in an endless cycle of people-pleasing. It was extremely difficult to make healthy decisions for myself, as I desired to keep everyone around me happy. The constant anxiety behind my indecisiveness left me in emotional pain and often left a path of destruction.
It was hard to forgive myself when I made poor choices. That pain was often exacerbated when those I cared about held those past regrets over me and our relationship. I was constantly left with the message, “You have to be perfect in my eyes, or I can’t accept or love you.” I hungered for real relationships with people who loved and supported me no matter what.
In the early days of my dating relationship with my husband, I remember being terrified to ask for forgiveness. I cared for him a lot and feared losing the relationship I had with him. When I did need to ask for his forgiveness, I was completely surprised by his response…