SAYING “STOP” TO TOXIC THINKING

My thoughts were skewed in how I viewed myself. I was still looking for outward affirmation. Not only that, I was looking for immediate confirmation from others that this was what I was supposed to be doing.

But God wanted to do something greater in that time. He began weeding out the toxic thoughts by revealing the lies I was clinging to for validation.

In this world, we are told that our value is based on how we look, what we wear, how successful we are, how we compare to others, and what others think of us.

The enemy is constantly after our identity.

How Will We Choose To Deal With Uncertainty?

We had no explanation for “why” this was happening, and we didn’t know “when” it would end. Even if we had the answers to those questions, I don’t know that they would suffice. The answers would only bring a temporary and false peace for the time. We’ve had to choose to move beyond the “why” and “when” questions, and ask the important question: How will we choose to deal with this uncertainty?

Pulling

There have been days where I haven’t sought God in this pulling. I’ve pulled up my bootstraps (or my mom pants), and tried to keep it all in line. But God was patient with me. Gently showing me that something needed to change. I needed to rely on Him in the big and little decisions (and indecision) each day.

When feeling overwhelmed or indecisive, I need to stop and realize that this is a signal. I need to turn these thoughts over to God, and demonstrate that to my children. Show them that Mommy needs God just as much as anyone else.

God provides…

Direction where there seems to be none.

Certainty in a world where uncertainty reigns.

Truth when the world screams at us from different directions.

Peace beyond our understanding or what this world can provide.

And Rest. Rest that renews our spirit and fills our bodies with true life.

I need that reminder daily.