How Will We Choose To Deal With Uncertainty?
I am thrilled to share my most recent article published for Marked Ministry’s May issue (below). Bits and pieces of my own story are weaved throughout, and I had a lot of fun writing this piece for MM.
“Why can’t I go to the store with you?”
“When can we go to the playground?”
“Why can’t we go see our friends or grandparents?”
“When will this sickness go away?”
The questions tumbled out of my four-year-old’s mouth as his little face scrunched up in frustration.
“Mom, I’m so angry right now,” he continued.
“I know, buddy,” I replied. “This is really hard right now. Mommy doesn’t like the sickness either,” I paused as tears began to fall down his face. I felt myself wondering what to say next to comfort his little heart and mind.
“You know what we can do right now? We can pray and ask God for courage and strength.”
“I don’t want to, Mommy. I just want this sickness to be over.” The tears continued down his little face.
I get it. This was hard for everyone.
It was especially hard for this little boy who didn’t understand why we had to be away from everyone. His four-year-old brain couldn’t comprehend why we needed social distancing, masks, and gloves. Our routine had changed so much.
“I know you don’t want to pray, but Mommy is going to,” I replied. “We need God right now.”
As the words left my mouth, I knew I needed the reminder too. I was frustrated with having to explain over and over why we couldn’t do our normal activities. My son trusted us, as his parents, but he didn’t fully get why we had to go about our day this way.
I felt the same emotions he did some days. Our family had all been triggered to anger, sadness, and a whole flux of other emotions during quarantine.
We had no explanation for “why” this was happening, and we didn’t know “when” it would end. Even if we had the answers to those questions, I don’t know that they would suffice. The answers would only bring a temporary and false peace for the time.
We’ve had to choose to move beyond the “why” and “when” questions, and ask the important question:
How will we choose to deal with this uncertainty?